Almost all people experience life events that prevent us from working, and it happened to be my turn these past few weeks. Unfortunately, our son was hospitalized for quite some time over the holiday. Of course, this happened while the kids and I were traveling sans husband. We have finally returned home and everything is starting to feel normalish again. We haven't fully recovered, but we are adjusting back into a routine and trying to get some much-needed rest.
I know you have probably ached in my shoes before. My family has and always will come before my work. I struggle to nourish my family and my business, but I am always going to choose my family first. Nonetheless, you have to survive these times and the guilt associated with not being able to work. So... how do you cope?
I rely on God and have been humbled by His grace these past three weeks. I am fortunate that I can talk to Him along with my Christian mentor and author of Anguish to Blessing blog, Joy Wade. My point in telling you this is to be open and honest with how I deal with stressful situations that prevent me from working.
Yes, I feel guilty and terrible about pushing my work aside, but I remind myself that Christ should serve as my ultimate example and I know He wants me to take care of my family. Work can be done anytime. I can write curriculum, review modules, code, 3D print, and design any time of the year at any hour I want to. And I will. I know I will feel re-energized in time and the work will get done. I am confident I will find relief and motivation and rest. I know these things, because I have my faith to depend on.
Now, this isn't a religion blog but this blog is about education and work. And bettering education for all kids. We have to be an example to our youth and our peers when it comes to facing rough times. I once was told kids do 90% of what you do and 10% of what you say. I think those stats are real. Yes, our students need to learn scholastic material but they also need to learn the soft skills associated with having a balanced, fulfilling life. I am not saying you have to explain what you are doing or reveal your religion but instead just be an example through your actions.
My actions were not to write any posts, not to review any modules, and to email all of my contracts and tell them I am on hold until further notice. I was nervous to write those emails, but every client was completely understanding and showed kindness and grace. I also know my store may not launch in December as planned- oh well. The store and new site launch when I'm ready. The products are timeless and will remain relevant for years to come.
I hope this gives you more confidence in the choices you make concerning your job. Whether you have to take a week off or just stop for a bit like I did, I want you to know it's tough for most people. Guilt may creep in and you may feel twinges of anxiety. Totally normal. We have important jobs. Peoples' futures depend on us and the experiences we present to our youth. But don't forget part of that job is to be the ultimate example.